So in one week I managed to get told twice, “I think you need to smoke weed” Then in the same week (rather in 6 days) I got told “I think you need to meditate”
Here’s the thing…I consider myself a spiritual person. My mornings include some essential oils going in the diffuser, a lit candle and me trying to pray. It can sound commonly like this “Hey God, thanks for this day, my kids, my hubby, my job, chocolate, friends” and then like a celestial vending machine in the sky I start to make my requests “Um…can I have more peace?” And here in lies the problem I’m finding. There is a lot of “doing” in my day. I love lists and my gosh I like to check them off and feel a sense of accomplishment except at the end of the day I can feel worn out and wonder where my my gold star is or that peace that I asked about. Raising teenagers is not for the faint of heart and I’m blessed with three. Three ALL at the same time. I love them but love hurts sometimes, need I say more?
So anyway back to this peace pursuit…for me there is this pressure that I must be doing this prayer thing wrong cause it ain’t workin’. So I’m examining the differences between prayer and meditation and what I’m noticing is that I’m still trying to follow “the script” Gratitude, confessions, supplications or something like that but here’s the thing…there is no script. There are a lot of women, mothers, students, men out there trying to follow the script in life except it’s a peace robber and you become a task master.
So I’m going all in. What does that look like? Well, I don’t do weed, it’s not for me but I have heard a lot about CBD so I bought some gummy bears which have less than .3% of THC. But here I am still nervous about getting high so I’ve only eaten the feet from the red one. And as for this meditation thing, I rediscovered an app called Calm.com
It has a 7 day beginner course which only lasts a few minutes (Thank God) this being quiet stuff is rough and requires attention while you’re trying not to pay attention. So confusing. Anyway, it has cool options like you can pick the serene background so I picked the crackling fireplace.
Let me know if you want to try out this app with me. It won’t replace my prayer time in the morning, I’m just trying to figure out what that looks like these days which is less talking and more listening. We have enough messages being thrown at us these days to “do” and not enough “be. Join in and shoot me a message if you liked it!